Plead
talk to monster and monster won't eat you.
Victims
upcoming! fun schedule equivalent :)
x Love Matters (Sunday) it's a terrible movie. =(
x The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (TBA)
x Cycling (TBA) --> I miss cycling =(
x Current Affairs Workshop (10,11,12 March)
x Thieves Market OH SO FUN! =D OWL BAG! <333
x 12 Rounds <-- hmm, boring movie? zzzzz *retches at mention of popcorn*
x Visit Objectif <-- LOMO Embassy; lomos are expensive. =(
x ARTFRIEND WAS FUN; haahs, if you consider trying not to fold a piece of turquoise tracing paper and bring it home in one piece fun.
x Knowing (Saturday)
x chalet! (13-16 April) <3333333
x X-MEN ORIGINS: WOLVERINE FOUND :D
Dramas
x Witch Yoo Hee
x ToGetHer (ai jiu zhai yi qi)
x Boys over Flowers
x Grey's Anatomy S5 WAITING S6!!
x House S5 SEASON 6 HURRY OUT!
x Gokugen 1, 2, 3
Movies
x Coraline
x Knowing
x Potter
x X-Men Origins: WOLVERINE
Sewing Machine
x fabrics purchase GOT THEM! =D
x attempts to create: jewellery tools case, purses, passport cover, lappy cozy
x BOOK COVER! COMPLETE!
Photography
x amateur photography --> kinda suck at this huh? (well, ongoing)
OHLIQ
x finish selling those ragged pieces of clothes! (can I give up already? :S)
Jasmine/A Tinge of Aquamarine
x jewellery tuning
x photography
x conceptualise
x photoshop
Cooking
x attempt to arrange/attend cooking lessons once a week with my mother CLOSE to giving up on this. :P
Fleas
x visit the theives' market at sugei road (since I FINALLY found out how to get there :) (wed) <3333333333
Fitness
x once-twice weekly jogging :) hey, relieves stress and increases metabolism! very very good. =) (or others like tennis and cycling)--> these no time. =(
x GOAL: to lose weight to below **kg :D
x dance class
x GOLF! lol.
x kayaking!
CCA stuff
x NYAA Chapter
x SPIN@TRM - NATAS
WISH LIST
x Disderi 3 Lens Camera =) --> Spreeing it! :D
x headphones? Those vintage kind! Plus won't mess my hair! (note* my head is pretty big, pls make necessary allowances. :P) --> anyone want to bring me to Jaben/Stereo?
x Jewellery Case/Box for bringing to Taipei. =)
x Maybe you can get me stuffs for my OIAP. hahas, just please, don't give me a ricecooker. -_-
x New Glasses
x Contact Lens
x Nude Heels and Gladiator Sandals!--> waiting waiting waiting!!
x Casual Blazer!--> bought! but the seller superrr slow. :(
x Robot Necklace & whale earrings!--> think I may forgo these two, whale earrings not so nice, may switch to birdie instead! Robot mahs, idk...
x Polar Bear Wire Wrap!
x Two new bags I kan shang online. Should be getting it. Except dno when she ordering also... O_O
x External Harddisk :x
leave now and monster won't eat you.
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it's not that I don't want to sleep, I really really do, it's just that I felt the urge to express my deepest thoughts as well. well, at the moment anyway. So, what should I do regarding charlotte? I wish I could just stimulate him/ chi ji him into revealing his feelings about me. Coz currently, I do not even know how he feels about me, or maybe he himself don't even know how he feels about me. Which is why I wish I could do a test to reveal his feelings both to me as well as to himself...... Sighhs, and yet, there doesn't seem to be any opportunities for that to happen. For one, we don't even see each other that often, and the only common group of friends we have are the cambo trip peeps. But, it's so obvious that I don't exactly fancy anyone from the cambo trip right? Or not? Then again, wee howe told me that if a guy is satisfied with the ai mei status with a girl, then he probably won't take the relationship with the girl to the next stage, and I was thinking, then what makes a guy satisfied with the ai mei status? Is it that he is unsure of his own feelings for the girl? Or is it that he simply does not have very deep feelings for the girl and therefore don't wish to further the relationship? It's all very confusing right now, but yet, I'm not ready just as yet to confront this thought. I think about it all the time, but I just cannot bear to ask the person in question yet. And that's why I'm so troubled by this. And I guess I just cannot bear the thought that he may not have too deep feelings for me, but then on the other hand, maybe i can, coz I know that he's still searching, and yet I simply let it be... It sucks, coz why is it that he is the one searching, why is it that he is not the one with the stronger emotions for me, why is it so unfair that he is simply enjoying the game while here I am, getting troubled over it? It's like why must I be the one who, in the sense, "love him more", than he loves me? I want a guy who is head over heels for me, and I don't mind if we love each other the same amount but I do mind if I am the one who loves him a WHOLE DEAL MORE and not the other way around. Coz honestly, it really does suck, coz you are not getting troubled like I am. And I wish I could just stop, but once love hits, I guess there's just no turning back. Other than waiting for the right opportunity, other than waiting to see if fate has really arranged for you to be the one for me, other than waiting for the correct moment to test your reaction of jealousy, other than waiting for my own destiny if you are not the one, other than waiting waiting and more waiting, there is really nothing much I can do...and it truly totally sucks big time that you cannot love me the way I love you.which may cause me to abandon the way I love you eventually and when you finally do love me that way, I may no longer be there... I hate the way things are right now and I wish for change. so that I can move on with my life. I guess I'm starting to feel sick and tired of this game. It's true what they say of ai mei, and I'm starting to wish I never started on this...
it's not that I don't want to sleep, I really really do, it's just that I felt the urge to express my deepest thoughts as well. well, at the moment anyway. So, what should I do regarding charlotte? I wish I could just stimulate him/ chi ji him into revealing his feelings about me. Coz currently, I do not even know how he feels about me, or maybe he himself don't even know how he feels about me. Which is why I wish I could do a test to reveal his feelings both to me as well as to himself...... Sighhs, and yet, there doesn't seem to be any opportunities for that to happen. For one, we don't even see each other that often, and the only common group of friends we have are the cambo trip peeps. But, it's so obvious that I don't exactly fancy anyone from the cambo trip right? Or not? Then again, wee howe told me that if a guy is satisfied with the ai mei status with a girl, then he probably won't take the relationship with the girl to the next stage, and I was thinking, then what makes a guy satisfied with the ai mei status? Is it that he is unsure of his own feelings for the girl? Or is it that he simply does not have very deep feelings for the girl and therefore don't wish to further the relationship? It's all very confusing right now, but yet, I'm not ready just as yet to confront this thought. I think about it all the time, but I just cannot bear to ask the person in question yet. And that's why I'm so troubled by this. And I guess I just cannot bear the thought that he may not have too deep feelings for me, but then on the other hand, maybe i can, coz I know that he's still searching, and yet I simply let it be... It sucks, coz why is it that he is the one searching, why is it that he is not the one with the stronger emotions for me, why is it so unfair that he is simply enjoying the game while here I am, getting troubled over it? It's like why must I be the one who, in the sense, "love him more", than he loves me? I want a guy who is head over heels for me, and I don't mind if we love each other the same amount but I do mind if I am the one who loves him a WHOLE DEAL MORE and not the other way around. Coz honestly, it really does suck, coz you are not getting troubled like I am. And I wish I could just stop, but once love hits, I guess there's just no turning back. Other than waiting for the right opportunity, other than waiting to see if fate has really arranged for you to be the one for me, other than waiting for the correct moment to test your reaction of jealousy, other than waiting for my own destiny if you are not the one, other than waiting waiting and more waiting, there is really nothing much I can do...and it truly totally sucks big time that you cannot love me the way I love you.which may cause me to abandon the way I love you eventually and when you finally do love me that way, I may no longer be there... I hate the way things are right now and I wish for change. so that I can move on with my life. I guess I'm starting to feel sick and tired of this game. It's true what they say of ai mei, and I'm starting to wish I never started on this...
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